I spent 2 or 3 years however you want to count it loving this man and what happens it crumbles. I learned that I wont be played with any longer. I mean it was the hardest breakup ever and it was never even official. It's crazy right you can live with someone and not know them. I mean I'm better now. It's just a lesson that I had to learn even though I avoided it for as long as I could. I grew up and that meant leaving him behind. I finally learned I deserved not to share the man I love, so I stopped sharing. I mean I cried myself to sleep so many times, but things are better this way. The only thing that makes me upset is that I can't say if he came back the right way that I would turn him down. I still love him, but that's natural right. I sure hope it is. The craziest thing is that he told me he misses me and I didn't even let it affect me because I know he's still the same. You can't always have who you want. You have to wait for the person God has for you.