Saturday, March 12, 2011
It's obvious that I love you. It's obvious that I'm stupid when it comes to you. They say you live and you learn, but when it comes to you things don't seem to work out that way. I'm living, but every time I think I'm learning you are here again. What will be enough? When will I be fed up? Where is my breaking point? I can't seem to find any of that with you. Things always lead back to us. I feel like I run so far, but you always catch up with me. You always bring me into submission. Let's be clear I have never been about settling, but with you it seems like the farthest thing from settling. It's like you make me happier than anyone I've ever met, but you have the ability to make me feel the worse feeling I have ever felt. I can't even begin to explain why I'm here and not ready to leave. I cant even type a reason that's clear enough to make anyone understand how I feel about you. It's like I rather be in the midst of this confusing situation then in a normal one with someone else. I know it's bad, but I can't put him down. I can't stop. I don't believe in letting our love die. Yeah, it's that deep to me. I've come too far to turn around and give it all up. Yal probably wont feel me on this one though. lol That's fine.